Louisville, Kentucky — Four years after my first U.S. marathon, I returned to Floyds Fork for a hometown loop that closed the PhD chapter.

The first official marathon I ran in the United States was the Louisville Marathon.

At the end of 2020, the pandemic was getting serious. I had been in the United States for almost a year, and I ran my first U.S. marathon in Louisville wearing a mask, under autumn sun that was a little too enthusiastic. I was slow, exposed, and very much a beginner.

Four years later, in the fall of 2024, I signed up again. This time I had more hair, lighter steps, better shoes, and a new identity: my dissertation defense was done, and all that remained was the graduation ceremony. Not bad. Dr. ZZ's academic marathon was finally entering the finish chute.

This race was not part of Dr. ZZ's Run50 new-state checklist. But for me, it was the closing act of a five-year PhD life.

The Louisville Marathon course sits in Floyds Fork Park on the east side of town. No big-city noise, just winding paved paths, woods, and small bridges, ideal terrain for overthinking your entire life. The finish is on Egg Lawn, and the course is USATF certified and Boston-qualifier eligible.

To be honest, BQ still has very little to do with me, at least for now. But this marathon has marked two turning points in my life, like a complete loop: 2020, the beginning of my American marathon life; 2024, the end of my PhD chapter.

That feels like a proper beginning and ending. The Louisville Marathon has watched me go from mask to tassel, from a rookie marathoner in America to someone who has run in 22 states. I am still not fast, but at least I have become a slightly legendary Doctor Runner.

Autumn in Louisville had turned yellow. Leaves fell one by one, and the ground crunched underfoot. The horizon slowly lit up, layered over yellow fields, and everything looked quietly comfortable.

Louisville start arch
Louisville start arch @Arsenan
entrance path at Floyds Fork Park just
entrance path at Floyds Fork Park just @Arsenan
Race-morning sunrise turning the field and
Race-morning sunrise turning the field and @Arsenan
grass parking field filling up
grass parking field filling up @Arsenan
pre-start selfie by the red arch
pre-start selfie by the red arch @Arsenan

I parked in the grass lot and followed the crowd toward the start. The race is not huge, but there were plenty of people, and the red arch was easy to spot. Runners stood in small groups, warming up and chatting. I wore an old jacket and planned to toss it once I got warm.

Sunrise and Floyds Fork water from the
Sunrise and Floyds Fork water from the @Arsenan
Louisville Loop marker
Louisville Loop marker @Arsenan
Orange sky and morning clouds
Orange sky and morning clouds @Arsenan
Early miles on the park road
Early miles on the park road @Arsenan
Running into the Louisville morning under
Running into the Louisville morning under @Arsenan

Once we started, the air was cool and clean. It was not crowded, and everyone had room to settle into their own rhythm. The sky felt high, the grassland wide, and I moved forward with the stubborn confidence I had when I first began my PhD.

paved path taking runners deeper into the
paved path taking runners deeper into the @Arsenan
Late-fall woods along Floyds Fork Trail
Late-fall woods along Floyds Fork Trail @Arsenan
10K and mile 3 course split marker
10K and mile 3 course split marker @Arsenan
Two runners approaching the photographer
Two runners approaching the photographer @Arsenan
Passing the bridge photo spot
Passing the bridge photo spot @Arsenan

The sun had just come up, and the river flashed gold. Two miles in, the woods still held some green. Around mile 3, the course passed under the tall Norfolk Southern Railway Bridge. Beneath it were photos and flowers for a girl, likely a community memorial.

Pink shoes and the black AR shirt on the
Pink shoes and the black AR shirt on the @Arsenan
course under the Norfolk Southern railroad
course under the Norfolk Southern railroad @Arsenan
Crossing the road
Crossing the road @Arsenan
Morning light outside the underpass
Morning light outside the underpass @Arsenan
riverside path in the early miles
riverside path in the early miles @Arsenan

After about five miles, the sun was fully up. Reeds spread out on both sides, and the side light stretched my shadow long across the ground. It felt like I was running beside another version of myself.

Running side by side on the wooded trail
Running side by side on the wooded trail @Arsenan
long straight stretch beside reeds and
long straight stretch beside reeds and @Arsenan
Fields and water at Floyds Fork
Fields and water at Floyds Fork @Arsenan
Side light on the red iron bridge
Side light on the red iron bridge @Arsenan
Crossing a park bridge on the course
Crossing a park bridge on the course @Arsenan

Before I knew it, I reached 10 miles. I had not been running slowly, at least by my standards. After that, the light grew harsher and the sun started aiming directly at me.

long open path beside the wooden fence
long open path beside the wooden fence @Arsenan
Mile 8
Mile 8 @Arsenan
Near mile 10
Near mile 10 @Arsenan
After ten miles
After ten miles @Arsenan

The first half went pretty well. My watch hit 13 miles just under two hours. For someone who had not been training well lately and whose belly was still expanding its territory, that was honestly not bad.

second-half trail between riverbank and
second-half trail between riverbank and @Arsenan
Repeating woods
Repeating woods @Arsenan
Looking up at late-fall branches and blue
Looking up at late-fall branches and blue @Arsenan

After halfway, though, the scenery began to repeat: same woods, same riverbanks, same meadows. Spectators thinned out. Runners thinned out. It was just me and my breathing. The sun climbed higher, the air grew stuffy, and by mile 16 my breath was short and my legs felt like lead.

Meeting Gleen on course
Meeting Gleen on course @Arsenan
open trail stretching out again
open trail stretching out again @Arsenan
runner moving alone
runner moving alone @Arsenan

It felt exactly like the middle of a PhD: funding getting cut, simulations crashing, a kid needing milk, and then your advisor suddenly tossing in a new project and asking you to drop everything to write yet another proposal. Absolutely no nutrition, but you still have to chew the pie-in-the-sky promise with a smile and pretend it has a rich aftertaste.

Mile 16
Mile 16 @Arsenan
Holding rhythm beside the water
Holding rhythm beside the water @Arsenan
Mile 18
Mile 18 @Arsenan

Just when I was drifting, a familiar face appeared on the course: Gleen, still looking exactly the same, carrying the 5-hour pacer sign and cheerfully leading his group forward. I said hi, and my mood snapped back. It was like running into a fellow PhD student and hearing, "You haven't graduated yet either?" Instant emotional balance.

Back across the red iron bridge
Back across the red iron bridge @Arsenan
bike volunteer patrolling beside the
bike volunteer patrolling beside the @Arsenan
sunny straightaway
sunny straightaway @Arsenan

A little farther on, the fueling finally kicked in. Around mile 20, my body seemed to switch modes. My rhythm steadied, and my head cleared.

Mile 20
Mile 20 @Arsenan
aid station
aid station @Arsenan

After 20 miles, the course suddenly came alive. Red berries grew on both sides of an aid station, like little red flowers handed out to every runner. I stopped for water and asked a volunteer to take a few black-and-red photos for me.

black-and-red course photo beside the red
black-and-red course photo beside the red @Arsenan
AR black shirt and pink shoes against the
AR black shirt and pink shoes against the @Arsenan
Red berries like little red flowers for
Red berries like little red flowers for @Arsenan

The red background matched my black Adidas Runner shirt perfectly. That shirt has history: I won it at an AR running event in Shanghai in 2019, and I wore it for my first Louisville Marathon too. Five years later, the quality was still excellent.

Spectators and signs cheering from the
Spectators and signs cheering from the @Arsenan
Beckley Creek Park sign on familiar
Beckley Creek Park sign on familiar @Arsenan

A few spectators stood along the road with signs and cheers. Someone yelled, "Pain is temporary, Strava is forever." The sun was getting hot, but I was feeling, as we say, physically and mentally healthy, and my steps stayed tidy.

park road leading back toward the finish
park road leading back toward the finish @Arsenan
downhill stretch toward Egg Lawn
downhill stretch toward Egg Lawn @Arsenan
Mile 25
Mile 25 @Arsenan

Farther ahead, the mile 26 sign finally came into view. The finish arch was not grand and the crowd was not huge, but after crossing it I still gave myself a little applause. The medal hung heavy around my neck, black background, gold lettering, 26.2 and Louisville Marathon shining on it. This was the medal for the final battle of my PhD.

Mile 26
Mile 26 @Arsenan
Finish-line arms up
Finish-line arms up Race photo

Five years started here and ended here. My first marathon in the United States was Louisville, and the last marathon of my PhD career was Louisville too. A full circle, with a beginning and an ending.

Louisville finish arch
Louisville finish arch @Arsenan
Red race tents in the finish area
Red race tents in the finish area @Arsenan
Standing in the finish area
Standing in the finish area @Arsenan

The five years of my PhD were honestly wild: I ran 30 marathons in 22 U.S. states; published 12 papers; wrote a grant for my advisor that brought in $918,734; and somehow developed morally, intellectually, physically, artistically, and, yes, physically again.

Close-up of the Louisville 26.2 finisher
Close-up of the Louisville 26.2 finisher @Arsenan
black-and-gold medal against the red race
black-and-gold medal against the red race @Arsenan

I did right by my advisor. In research, I did not drop the ball; in life, I also lived up to my own professional ethics.

Louisville medal resting on the grass
Louisville medal resting on the grass @Arsenan
runner crossing through the finish area
runner crossing through the finish area @Arsenan
Medal on my chest
Medal on my chest @Arsenan

I am grateful to my advisor too. He did, after all, help me become Dr. ZZ. He did not exactly lose out either: he got tenure and a new job.

medal wall at home
medal wall at home @Arsenan
Strava record
Strava record Run record

The pressure belongs in the past; the gratitude should stay in the heart. At the end of these five years, I did not lose, and neither did he. That is good enough.

One more finish-line photo
One more finish-line photo @Arsenan
Official finish photo
Official finish photo Race photo

In early December, my parents came to the United States together with Wang's dad and mom.

Family finally together at home in
Family finally together at home in @Arsenan
Chicago Chinatown
Chicago Chinatown @Arsenan
street photo in Chicago Chinatown
street photo in Chicago Chinatown @Arsenan

This was the big plan Siqi and I had been working on for a long time, and it felt like the final addition to five years of PhD life.

Graduation day
Graduation day @Arsenan
Family photo in the graduation hall
Family photo in the graduation hall @Arsenan
Family at the UofL graduation backdrop
Family at the UofL graduation backdrop @Arsenan

My parents landed in Chicago. We had not seen each other for five years. The moment I saw them, it somehow felt as if nothing had changed. That was enough. No need to turn it into a drama.

Dr. ZZ and family in front of Raise You L
Dr. ZZ and family in front of Raise You L @Arsenan
Doctoral graduates entering the ceremony
Doctoral graduates entering the ceremony @Arsenan

Wang's dad and mom helped take care of them all the way from China to the United States, which was truly wonderful. We went to an Airbnb to rest for a few days and had Chinese food in Chinatown. The noise and warmth of it all seemed to erase five years of distance at once.

Waiting on stage
Waiting on stage @Arsenan
Family in the spectators
Family in the spectators @Arsenan
Hooding and handshake on stage
Hooding and handshake on stage @Arsenan

Then the whole family drove five hours back to Louisville. The car was packed, but that only made it livelier. Once we got home, life suddenly tasted like home again: my mom started cooking immediately, changing the menu every day, which was more useful than any research output.

After the ceremony
After the ceremony @Arsenan
Family photo
Family photo @Arsenan
Photo
Photo @Arsenan

In a few days, it was time for the graduation ceremony.

smile from the ceremony floor
smile from the ceremony floor @Arsenan
Graduation photo in front of Raise You L
Graduation photo in front of Raise You L @Arsenan

First came the doctoral hooding ceremony. In the auditorium, the atmosphere and music were both formal. My advisor happened to be absent, so Professor Yang hooded me, and I shook hands with the president and dean. My parents were in the spectators, as were Dr. Wang and his wife, plus professional-level photography from Wang's dad and blessings from Wang's mom.

Lifting the doctoral flowers high on
Lifting the doctoral flowers high on @Arsenan
Checking in at the University of
Checking in at the University of @Arsenan
Saving the five-year home base in one
Saving the five-year home base in one @Arsenan

I took my family around campus, my base for the past five years. From the late-night lab to the fountain gate, every corner felt familiar.

Grinch on campus
Grinch on campus @Arsenan
Walking campus
Walking campus @Arsenan
In doctoral robe
In doctoral robe @Arsenan

In the evening, there was the university-wide ceremony at the KFC Yum! Center downtown. The scene was very American: grand, but also relaxed. Graduates walked across the stage, some singing, some dancing, all with a little playful pride. My dad even slipped close to the stage to take a photo of me.

Graduates seated inside Yum Center
Graduates seated inside Yum Center @Arsenan
Celebrating in front of the J.B. Speed
Celebrating in front of the J.B. Speed @Arsenan

I was proud of the whole day. I think my parents were too.

Family at the engineering school backdrop
Family at the engineering school backdrop @Arsenan
Parents and in-laws witnessing graduation
Parents and in-laws witnessing graduation @Arsenan
whole family together inside the
whole family together inside the @Arsenan

This doctoral cap felt both steady and fun to wear.

With Siqi in front of the engineering
With Siqi in front of the engineering @Arsenan
Yum Center graduation ceremony
Yum Center graduation ceremony @Arsenan

In December, America enters Christmas mode. I entered family-guide mode. After working for a week, I quickly asked for time off and took my parents and Wang's parents out to explore.

little team under Christmas lights
little team under Christmas lights @Arsenan
Checking in at the original Kentucky Fried
Checking in at the original Kentucky Fried @Arsenan

We went to an outlet, my parents' first U.S. shopping trip, looking at brands and trying on clothes.

Ugly Sweater Run in a winter park
Ugly Sweater Run in a winter park @Arsenan
Walking in loud Christmas sweaters in
Walking in loud Christmas sweaters in @Arsenan

Then we joined the Ugly Sweater Run. We arrived late and missed the main group, but walking through a winter park in ridiculous sweaters was still fun. The Louisville wind was a bit too strong, though, and Mrs. Wang caught a cold.

Apollo 15 display at the National Museum
Apollo 15 display at the National Museum @Arsenan
Ugly Sweater Run Christmas crew
Ugly Sweater Run Christmas crew @Arsenan

We also attended Jackie and Scott's wedding. It was held in the same park where I ran the Louisville Marathon, with only a dozen or so people. Simple, direct, and very warm.

Family photo at the Cumberland Falls
Family photo at the Cumberland Falls @Arsenan

Then came a small road trip to Cumberland Falls, Kentucky's largest waterfall, known as the Niagara of the South. It rained a little that day, mist filled the air, and the waterfall roared.

Selfie at Cumberland Falls
Selfie at Cumberland Falls @Arsenan
Christmas dinner table inside the mountain
Christmas dinner table inside the mountain @Arsenan

That night we stayed in a mountain cabin with a sparkling Christmas tree. Siqi had prepared matching pajamas in advance, so the whole family took photos in plaid. Instant American family movie energy.

Matching pajama family Christmas photo
Matching pajama family Christmas photo @Arsenan
Family heart around the Christmas tree
Family heart around the Christmas tree @Arsenan

Of course, joy always comes with side quests. I flew the drone on a whim and accidentally landed it on the roof. Luckily, my dad and Siqi helped, and the three of us successfully fished it down. The teamwork of a doctoral family was fully on display.

Roof rescue for the drone
Roof rescue for the drone @Arsenan

We also visited the first KFC store, which was part restaurant and part museum.

Matching pajama family photo by the cabin
Matching pajama family photo by the cabin @Arsenan
lively family meal at home
lively family meal at home @Arsenan

Later, on the way to send my parents to the Chicago airport, I took them to the National Museum of the U.S. Air Force in Dayton to see aircraft and Apollo exhibits. That evening we tried Indian food, which my parents found acceptable.

Family gathered around a Chinese dinner
Family gathered around a Chinese dinner @Arsenan
Holiday dinner at an Indian restaurant
Holiday dinner at an Indian restaurant @Arsenan

A month passed quickly, and we said goodbye at the Chicago airport. I waved through the security glass. Next time, I will see them back home.

Waving through airport security
Waving through airport security @Arsenan

Five years of a PhD is like an ultra-marathon.

There are the fresh ten miles, the eighteen miles where we hit the wall, the twenty miles where we endured, and the black gold medal when we crossed the finish line.

I am very proud of this journey. Maybe this is the meaning of studying for a doctorate. It gave me strong resilience and self-confidence, and made me healthier physically and mentally. In the end, I successfully became Dr. ZZ.

This December graduation was especially meaningful: my parents came to the United States for the first time, and Wang's dad and mom came too. During Christmas month, we saw waterfalls, stayed in cabins, visited the Air Force museum, and ran in ugly sweaters. The closing chapter of a PhD was not only one person's story. It belonged to the whole family.

The medal was a little red flower. The doctoral cap was a little red flower. The family reunion was a little red flower too.

These little red flowers rewarded me for running through the coldest winter, and they gave me strength for the days when I hit the wall.

The wind and snow in Colorado, the showers in the Himalayas.

The end of the world is full of cattle and sheep, the end point of the black and gold medal.

Give me a little red flower.

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